It's been two weeks since regular classes in school started, and all I can say is-well, I'm not really in good terms with the world, whatever the hell I did. I've been humiliated in school a lot of times that I don't feel embarassed anymore. I get low grades even if I really do know the answers. I can't concentrate on listening to my teachers. I became too insecure about the brilliance of my classmates and on how witty they were. I felt pressured by the competition, and conscious about my grades. I FEEL SO OVERSHADOWED....
One thing more, my pet died last Tuesday. It was so tragic. Me and my sister knew he was sick, but we still dared to hope that he will live. After school we headed to the grocery store to buy dog food and stuff like that, but as fate would have it, my mom was also there and saw us and told us the sad news. I felt terrible. The dog was young, and whenever I would think about him, I'd think about the chance, and the fact that he can't enjoy life anymore. And the fact that we haven't said goodbye to him. Oh, really, I know my nose is getting red now, but I don't think of dogs as dogs. I think of them as people. I still have another dog, because they were two. But still...it's just sad.
What is happening to me?
