I'm Not Missing This....

I know it's been, like, decades since I last wrote. I just can't find the time to write here anymore, and since it's the second week (and last T_T) of Christmas vacation, I'm not going to miss the chance to write here and update my blog.

Well, of course I still have the horrors from school-I just can't accept that I'm not the smartest in class anymore (Well, I know I'm competing with the smartest kids here, but still...) At least, I made it to one of the best. Yay! My ranking went up last quarter, and I am now sixth in my class. Plus I maintained my First Honor ranking in the Qualifiers list. I was just so happy that I made my parents smile again-though they were not pushing me too hard. I think I deserve more than I should. My classmates' parents have high expectations of their kids, but mine don't, though of course, my parents' expectations also have limits.

Then, third quarter started-it was the cruelest quarter I've ever experienced. I mean, come on, we weren't able to breathe! Seriously! Seven projects had to be done in a week, because the next week would be preparation for exams. Plus we're much more pressured than the other sections. And don't ask what kind of projects we've been assigned to do. It can kill with just plain 1-2-3-4 instructions. Third quarter depressed me so much that it became the first time that the nearing of Christmas never cheered me up-I had no spirit at all, unlike I used to. I hope it's only for this time.

First week of Christmas vacation was like having a project-again-though this time, it was with less pressure. We had to do a lot of preparations for our Christmas program on the 25th-I was assigned to head the props department. We won second place-being beaten by the gutsy group of my elder brother. Their presentation was pretty-uhm-well, gutsy.

I received cool presents this Christmas. I got a pair of Chucks from my parents; perfume from Tito Ben and Tita Nelia; The Official Twilight Soundtrack from my brother; A Billabong Hoodie from Tito Ricky and Tita Maridur(It's in pink, and I kind of have rules in wearing pink-mainly, I don't wear pink.)-and many others.

I guess I'll be ending this entry now-I'll update again. Oh. BTW, I had been having 'fun' with wishlists. Here's the best one I made. Haha.

Three pairs of Chucks-again!
Three more hoodies-haha. I'm getting quite addicted.
Three or two more shirts with hoodies. I know I'm obsessed, so don't say it.
Eclipse and Breaking Dawn.
Ten more novels. I want books, books, books.
Complete set of Harry Potter books-still number one for me! The Twilight Series never took the place. I mean, I love Twilight and all that, but Harry Potter has a much more interesting storyline and can be applied to readers of all ages. Think about it, what if Harry Potter had vampire characters (though it obviously had) and is much more romantic and poetic? Well, it might not be exactly like that...but just something like that.
Anime DVDs.
Mangas. Lots of 'em.
Black or gray or black and white backpack. Something good.
Materials for drawing my manga.
My own laptop...though my dad is talking about getting one for me and my younger sister soon...that'll be good enough. My sister is a bit scary in owning computers, though.
PSP SLIM! Hell, YEAH!
To finish my novels. I have another one coming up soon.
To be home-schooled. Grr. I'm hating school, seriously. Besides, I just want to learn, learn, learn.
iPod. I have one. Only, it looks like an iPod. But isn't.


Ah, well, this is all I have made up for now. I'm going to have it grown later.

I'll be posting about New Year!

Back back back!

I haven't written for September, and November is drawing near...I guess a lot of things should be expected from me. The problem is, I don't know what to write about. Maybe I'll start with a survey again? Ahaha. Yeah right.

August-I was absent for two days-EXAMINATION days (as much as I hate being absent)-to attend a wedding in Davao. It was a reunion with my relatives (father's side) whom I wasn't able to see much for the past years...(it was always a reunion with my other relatives). The wedding was great, though it would've been better if there was no wedding at all-I wanted to study so much.

I discovered a new anime show this October: Shugo Chara, and I'm pretty addicted to it. Now my waiting list for anime shows to be watched is growing. XD I added Black Cat and Special A to it.

BTW, our Intramurals 2008 started last Monday and ended yesterday. I participated in the Battle of the Bands and we LUCKILY won the championships, though I had my bets on S.O.S., the band which won second place. I was a bit disappointed in my performance because I didn't work to half of my potential, but I guess I'd do better next time. So now it's Hello, Sembreak! Woohoo!

I think I'll leave this for now. I still have Shugo Chara on my sched, plus Vampire Knight!

BTW, I've been working on my manga and the excitement in the story is drawing closer!XD

friday5.org

1. What did you last replace batteries for? >>I honestly can't remember.
   
2. What have you thrown away that you probably could have had repaired? >> A LOT of things. I just go like, "Oh, I can buy another one. I'll throw this,"
   
3. Among items in your line of sight right now, what should probably be put in the trash? >>The baby powder container.
   
4. When did you last use disposable cutlery while dining in your house? Ahh, I have no idea. Mom's better at this.
   
5. Whose actions cause you to waste time you otherwise wouldn’t waste? >>I wouldn't mention!

Okay, so maybe that survey was pretty useless, since my answers were usually "I can't remember", "I have no idea",-whatever. I just didn't have anything as an introduction...even if I do have LOADS of things to say.

I left this blog for months. I can't even remember when, thought it's obviously recorded (I didn't bother to check it out). I already have lots of stories circulating in my mind right now-my hand is already rushing to type it out, so please don't blame me for typographical errors.

Of course my academic life is still my priority. I always make mental notes like, 'You've got to study this one later,' or 'Oh no, you've got loads to do tonight, so no cramming,' but STILL I cannot finish my schoolwork. My grades are not random-they have this sort of pattern: When I get this good grade in Social Studies, I'd get a grade in English ten points lower. Is fate playing with me or something? I just can't stand this. It wasn't like this before. Up to now I'm still frustrated. Oh, I won't go on-this is already irritating me.

We had our Foundation Day today. The good part was there were no classes, thought it would also be alright for me if there were classes. The disadvantage was we just scattered around, stood where we can, sat when there was space available. The BEST part was we have no classes on Monday and Tuesday. Yay to the tenth power!:D I'd get to study more...(here I go again.) Something else happened to me, though, but it would be better if I keep it private. Sorry for that, folks.

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Oh, wow. We have a new pet that looked exactly like the one who passed away. The pet is a he and a Jimmy. He's so adorable XD. I think Jordan (our other dog) kinda knew there's another pup, even if he's never seen it. He sort of wants attention-he's always barking.

I'm being lucky in school, by the way. Dunno why, dunno how.

A Series of Unfortunately Unfortunate Events

It's been two weeks since regular classes in school started, and all I can say is-well, I'm not really in good terms with the world, whatever the hell I did. I've been humiliated in school a lot of times that I don't feel embarassed anymore. I get low grades even if I really do know the answers. I can't concentrate on listening to my teachers. I became too insecure about the brilliance of my classmates and on how witty they were. I felt pressured by the competition, and conscious about my grades. I FEEL SO OVERSHADOWED....

One thing more, my pet died last Tuesday. It was so tragic. Me and my sister knew he was sick, but we still dared to hope that he will live. After school we headed to the grocery store to buy dog food and stuff like that, but as fate would have it, my mom was also there and saw us and told us the sad news. I felt terrible. The dog was young, and whenever I would think about him, I'd think about the chance, and the fact that he can't enjoy life anymore. And the fact that we haven't said goodbye to him. Oh, really, I know my nose is getting red now, but I don't think of dogs as dogs. I think of them as people. I still have another dog, because they were two. But still...it's just sad.

What is happening to me?

Back To School

Oh, finally, it's here again. First day of school, June 11, I found out that I was placed in the star section-crap and everything else. I'm being negative about everything since, but then I remembered that before school started I promised to myself that I will be optimistic. Besides, it's the only way I can take all these positively, right?

I gotta study though. Everything is pressuring. And, oh, yeah, I told myself that I will avoid pressures this year.

WANTED: AIR.

Tennis

I got my first tennis racket yesterday! Hats off to whoever invented tennis. Alright, so this tennis racket isn't branded or anything. It's also a cheap find. I doubt it is original. I'm giving too much away, but come on, I'd only try it out. Since I'm new to tennis, I don't want to spend too much money on it. Besides, I can always switch to a better racket, right? Right now I'd just like to test it. I do hope that this will come out good though-at least, it'll be worth half of what I spent on it. Better if more than half.

Ahh, that's all I wanna say. One week and three days left before school starts, what a pain. I'm gonna miss snuggling in my bed in the morning and watching TV the minute I wake up. And, oh yeah, watching anime shows on the computer everyday. D:

Well, that's how life is, I'll just have to carry on.

<--Kyou Kara Maoh, otherwise known as God(?) Save Our King! or Demon King From Now On! Looks pretty yaoi, huh? Well, I'm not the biggest fan of yaoi, but this is a hilarious show. :D Besides, it's not totally yaoi-for me, that is.

The Outing...and Everything Else.

->> Vampire Knight, my latest addiction.

I was off the computer for two days-well, a day and a half, to be exact. The whole family (yes, whole-not just father and mother and siblings-I meant that relatives are included) went to Calamba, Laguna (or where ever in Laguna) for an outing. Yep, an outing, this late, when summer's already at an end. Well anyway, its was an okay outing for me-ahh, what did I do? I spend the whole time drawing my manga and it's coming out good! My relatives sort of butted in, though. Told me I just went there to draw instead of swimming. Like I really wanted to join the outing in the first place. -_-

Anyway, the manga is seriously a 'work'. I've been struggling a lot, but it's still worth it! After all, hard work will pay off, right? And I've been thinking of trying to play tennis recently... it just sort of hit my mind. I've never played tennis before, just badminton. And now I really do want to try it out...XD

Yep, too much Prince of Tennis, you might say.

What can I do? :D

Purachina

This is the opening song for the third season of Card Captor Sakura. I DO NOT CLAIM TO OWN THIS VIDEO OR ANY RIGHTS ABOUT THE ANIME, for that matter. This video was made by vintageemo. Here are the lyrics to the song, with the English translation:

ORIGINAL LYRICS:
I'm a dreamer
hisomu PAWA-

watashi no sekai
yume to koi to fuan de dekite'ru
demo souzou wo shinai mono
kakurete'ru hazu

sora ni mukau kiki no you ni anata wo
massugu mitsumete'ru

mitsuketai naa kanaetai naa
shinjiru sore dake de
koerarenai mono wa nai
utau you ni kiseki no you ni
"omoi" ga subete wo kaete yuku yo
kitto kitto
odoroku kurai

I'm a dreamer
hisomu PAWA-

mada minu sekai
soko de nani ga matte-ite mo
moshimo risou to chigatte mo
osore wa shinai

tori-tachi wa kaze ni nori tabi wo shite yuku
kyou kara ashita e to

tsutaetai naa sakebitai naa
kono yo ni hitotsu dake no sonzai de aru watashi
inoru you ni hoshi no you ni
chiisa na hikari dakedo itsuka wa
motto motto
tsuyoku naritai

genkai no nai kanousei ga koko ni aru
kono te ni
(It's gonna be your world.)

mitsuketai naa kanaetai naa
shinjiru sore dake de
koerarenai mono wa nai
utau you ni kiseki no you ni
"omoi" ga subete wo kaete yuku yo
kitto kitto
odoroku kurai

ENGLISH TRANSLATION:

I am a dreamer...
With hidden power...

My world
is made of dreams, loves, and anxieties
But there are still things lying hidden
that I can't even imagine


Facing the sky, like all the different trees
I'm gazing right at you

I want to find my dream...I want to make it come true...
There is nothing that I can't overcome
If only I believe
Just like singing, just like miracles
"Feelings" can change everything!
Without a doubt...without a doubt...
It's almost surprising!

I am a dreamer....
With hidden power...

A world yet unseen
No matter what awaits me there
Even if it's not the ideal
I won't be afraid

The birds travel in the wind
On a journey from today to tomorrow

I want to tell you...I want to shout it...
This way people will see I'm for real...
But like a prayer...Like a star...
I'm a tiny light, but someday,
The light will be so much stronger...

The possibilities are endless here
From these hands..
IT'S GONNA BE YOUR WORLD..

I want to find my dream...I want to make it come true...
There is nothing that I can't overcome
If only I believe
Just like singing, just like miracles
"Feelings" can change everything!
Without a doubt...without a doubt...
It's almost surprising!

First entry.XD

Well, this is my first entry in my first and real blog. Yay! I pretty much think I suck in my first try though... after all, I'm a newbie. Well, I have to say that it's pretty exciting, even if I always thought that blogging isn't my thing before. I mean, I have my own private journals and I hell don't want my entries to be exposed for the whole world to see. I wanted privacy, of course! But now...well, blogging? Why not try it? I've been spending half of my days on the computer anyway.

Enough about the try-blogging talk. I want to make this entry at least an introduction of myself. I tried writing in the 'About Me' section in my profile but it only allowed 1200 characters, and I didn't think I could express myself well in 1200 characters. Geez, what's with the limit? I hate limits, and I had to explain something unexplainable. In this case, me.

So, let's go...

I won't be posting my real name here, of course. It'll work with my nickname. Call me Abby. Calling me 'Ayame' is PERFECTLY fine. XD That's my 'wish-this-was-my-name' name after all, haha. I'm a kid. I don't care how much of a kid you'd think of me, but I'm pretty sure I am. I won't tell my age but...I'm a kid. I can repeat that a hundred times or more but I just want people to believe that I'm a kiddddddddddddd. I am I am I am. I hope we have that down.

I'm a kid.

:P

Next thing you should know is that I'm a highly linguistic person. I guess that rooted from the fact that when I was three or something, I started reading and eventually started to like it. I always have this big need to correct people's grammar, even if I myself am not sure if I'm correct (I'm still confused on using 'on', 'at', and 'in'.). But anyway, words have been a big part of me since. It just sort of 'flows', you know?

You should also know that I'm really, truly, totally, cruelly into Japanese anime (and mangas. That's different.*wink*) I'm so addicted to it you could almost say I'm an unrealistic person, what with 1/3 of everything I do involving anime. I'm making my own manga, which has the same title as my blog ('Panda! Panda! A Series of Black And White'. Dunno, I just wanted something perky and catchy and I couldn't think of anything else so I resorted to that.) So that will tell you that I also like drawing.

Of course I also listen to music. (Oh, yeah, like you'd ever meet someone who doesn't listen to music.) I listen to a lot of kinds, but mostly rock and anime songs. I'm a big fan of bands like Paramore, Coheed and Cambria, Alesana, Nightwish, Greenday, The Used, Yellowcard, The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, Boys Like Girls, and the lot. In anime-oh, a LOT.

Another thing you should know-I'm a really obsessive person. I'm also very ambitious (urgh) that I always spend my time day dreaming and day dreaming and not doing anything to get it done in real life at all. I'm a real pessimist, so I'm a 'down' sort of person. That's just how I think about me. But, well, if this blog of mine will go as far as my readers would realize that I'm not really a pessimist, you can correct me and tell me I'm not a pessimist...(but not an optimist either. Maybe just somewhere in between....c:)

But of course, no matter how nonsense this would sound, my pessimism won't get in the way of my dreams (even if I just said it did). It just can't, right? I wasn't born for nothing. And definitely not for just daydreaming.

Alright, I know, I know, I know that this entry is crazy, and that no one really gets anything at all. I'm aware of that. But I did say that I am unexplainable, so...I am! Even words can't beat that fact.

Note: Haha. To anyone who saw that picture above and is still looking at it (If there is any). That's Ryoma Echizen from Prince of Tennis. XDXDXD I just thought that posting up a picture of me would be a little embarassing, and...well, my crush's pic isn't! Some of you might think crushing on anime characters is weird, but to otakus-it isn't weird. It's just what humans are about. We all have those stuff, don't we?